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The movie American Psycho came out in 2000.  It was supposed to be released on my birthday (April 7th) and was instead released on April 14th.  This is relevant because the content of the film and the fact it was supposed to come out on my birthday freaked me out to the point that I boycotted seeing the movie.  My first high school bf (SkinHead) ‘jokingly’ threatened to cut me up into little pieces if I ever left him…so I left him (with an audience on school grounds).  He never even attempted to hurt me, but the trailer to American Psycho brought back those creepy “I’m going to be stalked and murdered” feelings.

The point???  I watched this movie for the first time last night and it was AWESOME!  I can’t believe I was so silly to refuse to watch it in the past.  It was amazingly done–truly creepy and funny.

Christian Bale is (and always will be) an amazing actor.  Another example: El Maquinista (The Machinist)

I just finished watching a show on BBC called “Love Me. Love My Doll” about men whose primary relationships are with Real Dolls.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with Real Dolls…they are life like, life size dolls of women (and men!) that anyone can order for sexual purposes.  These dolls are made to order, so you can create and own the ‘woman of your dreams!’  They are fully pose-able with all the appropriate orifices.

Anyway, this show was really interesting…profiling the men who purchase the majority of these dolls.  They tend to be socially awkward and probably have been hurt in the past by women.  I personally think that having a masturbatory aide like a Real Doll can help these men satisfy their natural human desires, however, some of the men on the show have given up on dating altogether.  The statements made by these men who have foregone ‘organic’ women made me feel terribly sad for them; one man is quoted saying “Relationships with humans are only temporary.  How many people can say that the friends they had when they were six are their friends still?”

The truth is that people change thus changing the relationships between them.  One must grow, develop and mature in order to find her authentic self.  Such is life.

Below is a clip from the show:

I’ve decided to not date or fuck any more.  The Universe is against me.  I went on a date with Drummer…I get a freaking BOIL. (Yeah, I know, sooo gross).  I go on a date with Hot Asian this past week and he gets randomly punched in the face by complete strangers!!  Someone out there does not want me meeting new guys…at all.

Thinking on it though, its not fair to these guys anyway.  I’m not emotionally available and I can’t hurt any one else like I hurt Hipster…I dated him in a state of denial about my feelings for Bucket.  I just can’t do that to anyone else.  I feel utterly guilty while on dates with these guys…and I can’t pillow talk about my love for Bucket with all of them like I can with Jail Bait…:(

The Rules:

1. Please post them at the beginning of your meme.
2. Please include a link to Sex Talk For Men.
3. Also, please include as many sordid details in your answers as possible — if you haven’t got any, make them up!

1. First French kiss?

I was 14 years old in the beginning of my freshman year of hs.  He was my first real boyfriend and he was adorable at the time.  We used to have lunches alone once a week which infuriated my friends.  Anyway, during one of these lunches I was straddling him and said “I’m bored” because it was cold and rainy and we weren’t really talking.  So he said “Well, you can always look down” We looked at each other in ‘that way’ and began kissing.  It was a perfect first kiss.  No slobber, no excessive tongue..nothing.  Just good.
2. First boyfriend / girlfriend?

His name was Danny and we met in elementary school but didn’t date until 7th grade…for about a month.  My first real bf was in 9th grade; he was also my first kiss.
3. First type.

Brunettes have always been my type and guys with glasses…now its more specific to slender guys who are unique and have a more alternative style.  Geeky kinda dudes.

4. First time you had sex.

It was a week after my 16th birthday with my second hs bf.  He and I had been together for 11 months at that point.  One of my girl friends allowed us to spend the night at her house.  She and I set up the upstairs room with music and condoms flung suggestively across the comforter.  He and I never turned on the stereo, but we definitely used the condoms.  He blew his first load in moments…I think he only got the tip in! The second time we had to go really REALLY slowly because he was HUGE and I still had a hymen.  I actually told him “This is a process.  You’re gonna go in till it hurts, stop when I say ’stop!’ and stretch me out till I say its ok to go in again”  haha.  We had total communication.  It was painful, but a really good experience.

5. First celebrity crush.

Michael Jackson, straight up.
6. First sexual fantasy.

I have NEVER told anyone this and its a little weird, so bear with me! I used to pretend to give “shows” to my stuffed bears.  These shows consisted of me pretending my vagina was the ‘headliner’ and that they were there to enjoy the show.  I’d use their little button noses to stimulate my clit.  Wow…does that make me a semi-plushie?  haha

7. First person you fell in love with.

My second hs bf and guy I lost my virginity to.  He was loud, charismatic, charming, anti-authority and adorable.

8. First proper sex toy.

A hard, blue plastic internal vibrator.  Its about 6 1/2 inches long.  I don’t use it as a vibrator; internal vibration freaks me out…but I love to use to press against my G-spot.  Love hard toys for that reason.  I need a glass dildo ;)
9. First porn video.

I was about 12.  I have no idea what its called, but it was a classic porno from the 70s I think.  My brothers and I found a box of old porno VHS tapes at my grandfather’s house and decided to watch a few.  The first was about a mermaid who wanted to be human so she could fuck…when she dried off she got legs and spent the rest of the movie fucking different people.  Wish I knew the name; I love porn like that!

10. First sexy lingerie item/sexy briefs owned.

My mom bought me this fuchsia mesh bra and panty set that I’m pretty sure I wore when I lost my virginity. The first sexy thing I bought was probably sexy thigh highs!
11. First time giving oral.

The first time I gave oral was after I lost my virginity.  No real reason why, it just sort of played out that way.  I was kind of scared of penises before that time. haha. I can’t recall the exact first time, however since I basically didn’t stop after that!

12. First time getting oral.

Now THIS is something I remember!  This happened before I lost my virginity because my bf at the time was sooo eager to try it.  I was a bit nervous, mainly because my parents were home and I had the kind of parents who insisted the bedroom door stay open at all times.  Like, touching the closet door open!  He pulled my pants and panties down and licked me ever-so-gently for a short period of time.
13. First orgasm given by someone else.

Early on in our make-out career, that same guy who I did most everything for the first time with, gave me my first orgasm.  We were kissing and I was straddling his left leg and grinding…it didn’t take long for me to cum from that…its been a while since dry humping has gotten me off.
14. First one night stand.

Easy, the guy in Georgia…he was the second guy I ever had sex with and my rebound after discovering that my bf had been cheating on me for lord knows how long.  GA guy was really sweet and cute.  We were each others’ seconds.  I was a little vixen with him.  It wouldn’t have been a one night stand if he hadn’t left me the first day after fooling around for hours.  He had to go be with his family (blah!); I tried to keep him around by removing articles of clothing haha.  We hung out again, got a hotel room and fucked twice.  He has the biggest dick I have ever encountered.  Wow…porno-status.

15. First dirty book/dirty mag read.

Madonna’s sex book when I was in 5th grade with a girl friend of mine.  We snuck it out of the back of her mom’s book collection when I spent the night one night.

Who doesn’t love playing Rock Band?  I know I can’t get enough of it!  Here’s a few tips on How To Look Hot While Playing Rock Band:

So, I’m moving back to the Bay from LA today.  I’ll blog about the rest of the goings on from my last week in LA when I get settled in Sonoma county.  You’ll want to tune in, trust me…there was some interesting stuff that happened ;)

At this very moment I am attempting to calm the rage that is pulsating throughout my body.  Not a lot of things in this world can make me feel like my heart is going to explode from my chest and ninja the neartest advasary. But that is exactly how I felt a few short moments ago.

A friend of a friend was sexually assaulted over the weekend, quite badly.  And I’m appalled…it was by someone she trusted…someone who knew her limitations–her insecurrities…and he did it anyway.  And to add insult to injury, some dick-face guy made light of the situation.

I am sick and tired of the rape culture we live in as Americans.  I’m sorry, but if she says NO (yeah, even after saying YES) its RAPE, not some bullshit ‘gray area.’  Just because you have a hard on does not mean you ‘have the right’ to go until you blow.  Your dick does not make you the king of everything nor does it give you the right to use ANYONE for your own sexual gratification if the feeling isn’t mutual.  And what THAT means is that you don’t get to jerk off onto unwilling participants either…or touch unwilling participants…or undress unwilling participants…all of these actions are considered SEXUAL ASSAULT and are punishable by law.  Spelled out: YOU WILL GO TO JAIL, MUTHA FUCKA.

Ladies (and gentlemen), you do not have to have any type of sexual contact you don’t want.  If you don’t want it, say so, if it happens anyway…its not your fault and you have the legal right to defend yourself.  I urge you to report it.  The more victims that come forward, the more likely the assholes that commit these heinous crimes will be put to justice.

I love you all and am here for anyone who needs me! <3

I read this posting by another blogger:  http://canikeepyou.com/2009/01/14/lemons-ibuprofen/

I immediately freaked out.  There is so much wrong with the information in this blog it boggles the mind.  I vowed to spread sexual knowledge to the masses in any way possible, so of course (during my heart attack) I had to comment.  Here is my response to the blog…filled with accurate information.

“HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

A) WTF is wrong with you people?
B) DO NOT take painkillers to stop a period. Just tell her to start her new month of birth control pills when she would usually be taking her “placebo” pills so she can get her period; This will stop her period in its tracks. This is perfectly safe and what a doctor would actually recommend.
C) It IS just a bit of blood, man up.
D) NEVER, NEVER, NEVER have sex in chlorinated water…omg, so bad for the woman. Chlorine messes with the ph balance of the vagina and will give her a yeast infection.
E) Having sex in water may sound fun, but it washes away the natural lubricant of the vagina (and all water based lubes).  Less lubricant = more chaffing (also known as tiny abrasions in the vagina).  More chaffing = more chance of the grossness of a hot tub creating an infection and more chance of a yeast infection.  So, if you’re gonna fuck in water, get yourself some high quality silicone based lubricant–it lasts and lasts, its safe for use with condoms, its great for those with sensitive skin and (if you’re kinky enough) great for anal.

Ok, I’m done.  I just super concerned about vaginal health/sexual knowledge. <3″

I got a little worked up after reading that post, but I think the reaction is necessary.  People need to know fact from fiction especially when it comes to sexual health and knowledge.  I aspire to be a sex therapist and pride myself in learning all there is to learn about sex and sexuality.  If you guys want to know anything, just ask.  If I don’t know the answer, I’ll do my best to find out for you.

<3 you all and your vaginas and penises

Edit: Jimmy James (the author) is not the dumbass my blog makes him out to be.  This blog is in response to the information given to him by his friends and people who commented on the aforementioned post. =)